A Story of Awakening,
Loss, Redemption
& Homecoming.
M46 was born through a story we never would have chosen— a journey through loss, restoration, revelation, and the relentless goodness of God.
There was a story before M46.
Bryan Elliott grew up attending church and thought he was a Christian. At fourteen, his image of a safe and connected family was shattered by a devastating gun accident that left his brother in a comatose state.
His family became marked by unprocessed grief, resentment, and shame. By his twenties Bryan had slowly drifted away from church and Christianity.
He became successful in business and devoted much of his life to philanthropy, yet beneath the success were anxiety, striving, and a trust in money rather than a settled understanding of who he was—or Whose he was.
Bryan didn't return to God.
He woke up to where he had always been.
At forty-six years old, Bryan experienced what he once described as his “return to God.” He used to say he made Jesus Lord that year. But Jesus was already Lord.
For twenty-eight years Bryan had lived convinced he was outside—separated, distant, disconnected. Yet through every season of rebellion and every moment of running, God's profound love had never let go.
During this season God brought Kenn Gill into Bryan's life. Kenn became a spiritual father who helped Bryan discover what it meant to live as a son—moving from religion to relationship, performance to rest, and striving to belonging.
Not a servant striving for acceptance.
Not a prodigal earning his way back.
A son who had always belonged.
Then everything changed.
Bryan and Bryn's lives were forever changed when their beloved Abbe—daughter, sister, and Bryn's best friend—was murdered at twenty-one years old.
Shortly after Abbe's death, the Lord spoke to Bryan through the Gospel of John.
“Unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds.”John 12:24
Like a seed falling to the ground, what was meant for destruction became the catalyst for deeper awakening.
And in the grief, a question emerged: Where is Abbe now?
“The Kingdom of God
is within you.”
The revelation began to unfold that heaven was not merely somewhere distant. The Kingdom was already present. Heaven was within. Heaven was now.
The gospel was no longer only something Bryan believed. It was becoming something he lived.
In the years following Abbe's death, Bryan walked through what he would later describe as a perfect storm of loss and upheaval.
Nothing could separate them from His love.
M46 Ministries Begins.
In 2018, in the midst of extreme tragedy and brokenness, the thought of Bryan and Bryn someday launching a ministry together seemed impossible.
But God opened door after door. The ministry's launch date eventually had to be shifted by three weeks. When Bryan saw the new date, he realized what it was.
On May 23, 2022—four years to the day of Abbe's entrance into full awakening— Bryan and Bryn launched M46 Ministries.
From a family of two… to a family of eight.
And then God did what only God can do.
Not forgetting—expanding.
From a family of two launching a ministry in faith, through the temporary loss of Abbe, came new marriage with Teresa and five new children. A family of eight.
God restored Bryan's family and business. Bryn pursued biblical studies through YWAM, has written books, shares her testimony through podcasts and conversations, and now works at FLō Energy Solutions in People and Culture.
The same Gospel we share through M46 is written into the story of our own family.
From restoring families
to awakening identity.
M46 began with Malachi 4:6—the turning of hearts and restoration of families. That mission remains.
But through loss, revelation, and deep study of Scripture’s original language, our understanding of the Gospel began to deepen. We discovered a Gospel far more beautiful than the performance-based religion we had inherited.
Tetelestai
It is finished—and remains finished. The work of Christ is complete.
Metanoia (often mistranslated “repentance”)
— a transformed perception: a radical realignment of our mind with God’s.
En Christō
In Christ. Our permanent location in Him.
The restoration of families flows from the awakening of identity.
When you know who you are— when you see that you were found in Christ before you were lost in Adam— everything changes.
Freely received. Freely given.
Everything M46 produces is free and free to distribute. Books are also made available through Amazon, Kindle and Audible at the lowest price each platform will allow.
“Freely you have received;
freely give.”
Matthew 10:8
Maybe your story isn't so different.
Whether you've walked through unimaginable loss or simply feel lost in religion— whether you've been in church your whole life or walked away for decades— the message is the same.
The union is seamless. The embrace is unbreakable. The belonging is eternal. Heaven is within. The door is open.
Welcome home.
There is no place like home—in Him.
There is no place like heaven—within.
Abbe Elliott
1997–2018
Who showed us that heaven was never far away.
Kenn Gill
1952–2025
Spiritual father who modelled sonship and helped us see the Father's heart.